I feel like I'm lonely. I know that I like to be alone and just want to do my thing, but I feel lonely from time to time.
Short to me: 19 years male, slightly overweight. Had 2 relationships Hobbies: gambling…
I can say that I have no friends. I understand each other well in my education, I'm sometimes extroverted and approach others, but privately I never do anything with someone. And I do not know why that is. If it's up to my character then I do not notice… If it's up to my appearance then I could change (which I do not want to do for other people).
I take care of myself daily and have a very good hygiene. I get in my education only positive feedback that I'm polite, empathic and warm.
I have been a passionate gamer since my schooldays. That's why I have no other hobbies. And I would not know what would appeal to me there to meet with somebody. Especially because I do not want to be the one who comes alone in an association where everyone knows each other. Then I'm the "weird one" who has no friends. In education, this does not happen when I'm sitting alone. I have not met with a friend since the 7th grade. The few times I have met with a "friend" for "drinking" I do not count as socializing. They are already two years back.
I also tried to go alone on a party and get to know some people there. But that was a disaster since I was strangely looked at as soon as I went to a group, as if I was an alien.
At the beginning of my training, I met with 3 friends privately and we went out. Which I really enjoyed. However, it stayed one thing. With me. The group continues to meet, only without me. And I do not know why. In the training you will continue to meet me very friendly.
That evening, I just realized how ignorant I'm. Despite all the fun, I felt like a 3rd wheel on the car. I was often unable to have a say on the simplest topics (such as trends, gossip in education, insiders, funny stories from life) because I have no experience in that. Besides, I can't tell at all. As soon as I play a story I have the feeling that my counterpart only understands the station which makes me even more insecure.
I've filled this gap in the past few years with gambling, YouTube and Twitch. But as slowly as I lose interest in gambling, this gap becomes palpable.
So my question is what should I do. I know this site is not a psychologist, but maybe someone of you thinks of a very simple solution that I've never considered.
Go to a club, look for other hobbies, voucher courses
Stay the way you are, because that's ok, just do not forget, it can only get better! Every human being is unique and has its value, there's no one who has no value, hold your head up and look ahead and make the best of it because you only live once and every moment could be the last, be thankful for everything and have a pure one heart then that will trust me no, even better, trust YOU! Oh be a little bit alpha as man harms never be active build up your circle of friends to be entrepreneurial take care of your contacts.
