It's been a few years in the past, but I can't forget it, even if I wanted to.
When I was younger (maybe 5th or 6th grade) I knew an older girl I went to school with and was loosely friendly with. She was two years older than me and behave much more adult. She lived in the same village as me and liked similar things and since I had very few friends at the time I looked up to her and wanted to be friends with her, just because she was older and back then it was considered "cool" and to have grown up older friends.
We had arranged to meet a couple of times, she insisted that I should come to her every time and most of the time the harmless stuff was the 11 year old doing so, drawing, rocking, playing Wii. But a meeting was different.
It was autumn and already dark outside, but for some reason I was still with her. We sat in her room and did nothing until she suddenly said that she had to measure me for a dress she wanted to sew. I thought that was a bit strange, but I was not a particularly intelligent child so I stood up as she had said and held out my hands in front of my body as she wanted. Then it happened.
She had a thick plastic rope (like the ones that are sometimes on skipping ropes) wrapped around my wrists and pulled a loop and even before I could react, she pushed me onto her bed and sat on my chest. I was totally surprised by the sudden change of heart and asked her several times what she was trying to do while trying to tie my kicking legs together. I can't remember exactly what she had replied, but I think it has always softly "shackles!", And "All right, shut up!" said. I was about to cry when her mother called her and she left the room. Panic, I freed myself from the ropes and hastily ran down the stairs to the living room to no longer be alone with her. Shortly thereafter, I called my father to pick me up.
Is that funny? Or was I in a really dangerous situation? I ask for honest opinion.
We moved a good six months later. I do not know where she is or what she does. I have not seen her since the move. Who knows if she remembers it without being the only person she made such a thing with.
Honestly, it pulled me the digestive pit when reading through. Normally, that was certainly not who knows what she had planned. I think you can rely on your gut feeling that you had this attack at the time.
Refurbishment through dispute eliminates this…
Then you have to learn to learn… But nothing bad happened to you, maybe by luck, maybe because you just wanted to play… But you felt uncomfortable, that's fact… So it was good that you ran away and the contact have broken off…
Be aware, you did not do anything wrong.
As I wrote before, I do not think the situation was really dangerous because her parents were in the house… But it was not normal either…
You did not do anything wrong, the only thing you can do now, live with it.
All the best!
We did as children too. Normal. But clearly scary when someone makes it almost stranger. You were not in danger, because she was home with her mother. You could have screamed.
You know best what scared you, it always depends on how. Had now erotic can be felt by you. Does not have it. Either this situation has scared you of helplessness or you have felt something, an ugly intention, brutality?
